Sunday, June 6, 2010

Mommy Doubts

I feel like I'm not being a very good mommy.
The pumpkin has been a little fussy. I wish he would take a nice long nap so that I could read, or check my email, or just stare off into space for a while. I need a break!

Maybe I'm not playing with him enough? Or snuggling him enough? Maybe I'm not smiling as much as I used to? Maybe he can tell I am sad inside. I am trying so hard to laugh with him and sing with him. But I feel like I am falling short somehow. I get so worn out sometimes when I bounce him around or hold the squirmy little guy.

I love him so much.
I just feel so overwhelmed.
I need time to myself.

I am so worried about screwing him up somehow. I'm so scared that I can't do this.
And I am so afraid that I'm not a good mommy at all.


Lilli said...

First things first, you are a great mommy! Even seasoned pros feel like that sometime and that right there proves you're a good mom. A bad mom wouldn't care if she was a good or bad mom. Secondly, he's 6 months old right? He's most likely teething. Symptoms can be fussiness, fever, waking at night, runny nose, pulling at the ear, biting on things, drooling...the list goes on and on and on. It can start anywhere from 3 months onward and last until all teeth are in. It's rough but all you can do is love him and give him hugs and snuggles (and tylenol occasionally if he gets a bit of a fever and the pain gets too bad.) Being a mommy is the hardest yet most rewarding job in the world. Hang in there you're doing a great job!

Daddy D said...

You're a great mom and Patrick is lucky to have you! I know I've been busy lately but I'm totally available for the baby snuggle action to take him off your hands for a while. Even if it's at your house still, I can let you chill out and do your thing and you know Patrick is in good hands and close by should you need a snuggle :D

Sandi said...

Thanks Drew! That sounds like a great plan!