11 Weeks

I am officially 11 weeks! 

I have not been feeling very good the last two days. Here I was reading that "morning sickness" starts getting better gradually, and mine seems to be getting a bit worse. Not cool =(

Other than that - things are going well.

I even wrote a cute baby poem, and ended up sharing it at a poetry reading at school today. I'll have to post it later because I left the final draft at the school.

I have been insanely moody. And really I was a teeny bit emotional and moody before being pregnant...now I am sometimes just appalled at my roller-coaster of emotions. But I try to take a deep breath when I get really upset and remind myself that it is not as bad as it seems, even if it FEELS bad. That usually helps a bit. But my poor husband...

In fun happy news, my mom bought me a wonderful pregnancy body pillow and some pamper me stuff from Earth Mama Angel Baby. I can't wait for that to arrive!  And I just discovered the website offers a registry! I'll be playing with that this evening =D

My Checkup

Had my second ever prenatal appointment today. It went well. I found out I am A- which means I am RH- so we will be finding out what Drew's bloodtype is. It would be great if he is negative too, because then there are no issues. Though, when I told my mom this she said "No, you are A+" So I went and got my blood re-drawn and should have the results back on that by the end of this week. 

Everything else was normal which is great! 

Drew got to hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time. He was very excited! =) We will get to hear it every appointment now.

The midwife also said that my uterus is expanding just as it should be.

We  got a tour of the birthing area of the birth center. The lady who gave us the tour was super nice and full of awesome information. She did two water births so she had alot to say about that. One of the rooms is called the VanGough room and I heart it very much!

Everyone we have met so far at the birth center is so very wonderfully nice! Really, the only turn off for me is the other clientele. Ghetto meets Country. I may sound a bit snobby...but trust me, if you saw these people you would totally understand.

I am still going to tour the hospital and the other birth center, just so I know the choice I make really is the best. But, I really love the place I am at now. It's just a shame that in a couple of months we will no longer be right down the road from them. 

And may I just add - Medicaid rocks my world!

Body Woes

I really didn't think I would be bothered by the body changes. Having been quite overweight I figured "been there done that". But here I am, freaking out just a teeny bit over my weight. I worked very hard to lose weight. I lost around 50lbs and I am terrified of gaining it back!

I'm still not a thin person by any means, but I was starting to look and feel pretty good...and now my waist is disappearing, the fat belly is reappearing. Sometimes I look in the mirror and my face looks the same, sometimes it looks as if I am putting weight on. But the scale swears to me that I have only gained that 1lb I am supposed to gain (it fluctuates of course but averages out to 1lb)

I feel HUGE and gross. I need to get over it, I know this. But how? I really don't want to be gross and fat. I want to be a beautiful pregnant goddess...not a big slob where people say "Is she pregnant or just getting fat again?"

It doesn't help that I really am not eating as healthy as I would like - simply because I can't. More on this in another post...

A friend of mine asked me what it is like to be pregnant. So far it is weird. I have these moments where I think "Oh my GOD I am really pregnant, there is this little person growing in me!" and moments where I feel so tired and yucky I don't think much about anything. I think as I get further in, it'll become a little less weird and a little more exciting - especially if I can get past the body issue. I do occasionally get the sense that my body really is not my own right now - and that in itself is a very odd feeling.

10 Weeks down, 30 to go!

I am 10 weeks now...wow! Only about 3 more weeks of the first trimester...wow it goes by kinda fast!

I sent Drew on his first pregnancy craving errand today. You see, when I see or hear about a food that doesn't disgust me I begin to crave it insanely...it began with a Shamrock Shake, then moved on to avocado eggrolls...and now peanut butter eggs...

So off my wonderful husband went to bring back peanut butter eggs and the perfect accompaniment - ice cream =D

I told one of my co-workers today and he was so excited. He even did a little dance. That was pretty cool =)

I told two more close friends. One was thrilled! The other...well...she has not said much since then. I am thinking she probably just needs some time to process the information. That is something I can definitely understand.

Ultrasound Photos

Here they are - the first pictures of the little bean!

There's something in there!!!

I had my first ultrasound today. I was half expecting them to tell me to go home or something...like I didn't belong. "Crazy girl, there's no baby in there, what are you doing here?"

The people at the office were so so very nice! And even though I really almost did pee myself in the waiting area...I made it! And then there is was...the baby. My baby. I saw it! I got to hear the heartbeat too! Everything looks fine and normal as it should...I'll get more details from the midwife when I go to my next appointment, but all I really wanted was to know it was really in there...and it is!!!

Wow!

I am really and truly the keeper of the bean!

The only bummer was that Drew had to work, and we coudn't record the heartbeat with my phone (they wouldn't let us) But mom was there and that was really neat too. 

And I admit it...I started to tear up a bit when I heard that heartbeat...

9 Weeks!

As of today I am 9 weeks pregnant. This means I am offically 2 months pregnant. Wow! Only 7 more to go!

That is rather mind blowing.

When I am very tired I feel completely overwhelmed by this...But usually I am calm. Calm is good.

I am nervous and excited about my appointment tomorrow - my first ultrasound. I will actually get to see, and probably hear, the baby! So cool!

It'll be a while yet before I get to know if it is a boy or a girl...that is absolutely crazy making! 

Of course...it seems Dr.s like to make pregnant women crazy. Tell me - who's idea was it to make a pregnant woman either fast for testing OR hold her bladder for 1 hour and then fill out paperwork! Are you kidding me!!!

It'll be a miracle if I dont pee all over myself in the waiting room tomorrow...